Pickle In Your Pocket

I know I just got this job, but it’s really not working out. Graveyard shift is incredibly challenging. First you have to stay awake all night while you wander around. Second, if something exciting like a medical issue does happen, all you can think about is that 2 hour long report you have to write up afterwards. I’ve always thought it’d be cool to work in the medical field. I’ve looked into healthcare jobs but a lot of them require going back to school. I guess we’ll just have to see what happens with the sheriff job. Otherwise I may just have to take out more student loans and try my hand in the nursing field.

I wish I didn’t have to work. I know everyone wishes that, but I feel like I spend more time working than at home with my future wife. All I do is work, or catch up on sleep because of work. It’s a vicious cycle. All I want to do is go travel with T. We’ve been invited to Tahoe, asked to go on a hiking trip, and we both really want to make a trip out to Vegas in the next year.
If only I could make a living writing hydrolyze reviews or inventing something and living off the spoils. Instead, I slave away at my job all night, and have fleeting moments to spend with T when we’re both actually awake. I want to punch things…

It’s only been a week, but I’m starting to get anxious. I wish they’d just hurry up and call already. I’m sitting here having trouble going to sleep after my night shift, watching bad daytime tv with nothing but ads about acne scar cream and cleaning supplies. T says I should wait until it’s been 2 weeks to check in with them again. Hopefully I get a call before too long. It’d be so nice to finally have a real career.

Last night T and I had a fun discussion about bucket lists. We came up with a new list, the Before Baby list. We both want to have kids fairly early, but we still have a few things we’d like to do together as a couple before we’re saddled down with kids, dark eye circles from no sleep, and no energy. Don’t get me wrong, having kids will be awesome, but we bitch about being busy now! Just wait til we have kids to take care of on top of everything else.
So here’s our Before Baby list so far. Most of it is just traveling together, something we haven’t had the chance to do yet.

• Go on a real camping trip. We’ve only been tent camping at someone’s house, which doesn’t really count.
• Go to Vegas. I’ve never been, and T has only been with her family. We don’t really have a huge desire to go, but it feels like a rite of passage that I just need to do before I’m a dad.

• Travel to at least one of the following:

-New Zealand (this would be awesome, but it might have to wait til our  kids are grown since it’s so damn expensive)

-Alaska

-Hawaii

• Go on a cruise together. Maybe to Alaska!
• We’d also love to go on a long road trip somewhere in the US. We could do this with kids, but it’d be more fun just us.
• Go to a tropical island-we’re going to Cozumel for our honeymoon, so that’s probably close enough. Can’t wait to kick back and relax together!

Anyone else have a before baby list of things they wanted to do?

Today is my Saturday, yay! I didn’t realize I’d miss my nights with T as much as I do. I love seeing her all sleepy face getting ready for bed, putting on her night cream and her slippers. That’s usually when we get to snuggle and visit. It’s the highlight of my day and I always looked forward to it. Now I only get that highlight two days a week. I guess it really makes me appreciate my time at home.

I love one thing about all these wedding plans my fiance is going through-her workout routine. I mean, I always think she’s hot, but lately she’s been hitting the gym really hard, and started a sort of at home weight watchers plan. They have diets that work because it’s not giving up food, she’s just portion controlling. That way she doesn’t miss out on good food. She looks amazing! I can’t keep my hands off her.

Time really flies by. We just got an invitation to our good friends’ baby’s birthday party. At least they’re not religious and it wasn’t one of those first communion invitations. But the party is on a Sunday and I won’t be able to make it. It’s crazy to think about how many friends this little guy has. His parents are really popular so there’s going to be more people at this 1 year old’s party than our wedding! Haha. He’s a really cute little guy though, and he deserves a fun party. Too bad I have to miss it, but I know T will take lots of pictures for me!

The polygraph went great! I’m pretty excited about it. The interview before that went pretty smoothly, I got a 91%. The next step will be a background check where they will come to our house and check out how T and I live. I’m trying not to get too excited, but it’s hard not to. A job with a sheriff’s department would be an amazing step forward for me, and for my life with T. They will have great benefits, including a competitive life insurance rate, and also they pay me to go through academy. Keep your fingers crossed, this may be it!

If I do get the sheriff’s job, hopefully my fiance can start going to an online university and changing her career. I’ve told her before that I think she’d be a great nurse, and I found an online nursing degree program. Either that, or teaching. Eventually when we settle down in a good location, she can go back to a regular school, but this would be a nice alternative for now. The tuition is very inexpensive compared to a 4 year university and the classes schedules are very flexible for working students. Even though it’s an online university, there are assigned mentors to help students get through it. Sounds like a great idea for my bride to be!

I think I’m getting sick from this new schedule and all of the cigarette smoke in the casino. I hope my health insurance kicks in soon and is half as good as North Carolina health insurance. I’m pretty much tired all the time. I really really need a nap. At least i get the next two days off! Time to SLEEP.