Pickle In Your Pocket

I just got hired for a new job. I will be working as an EMT/Security at a local casino. I am very excited. I am in the process of finishing up my pre-employment screening. Basically the only thing I have left to do is finish my background packet and then go in on January 4th for a second interview. Once those items are completed I will receive my gaming license and I will be able to start working. This is great news for me because I am super broke….oh Yeah My girlfriend and I are now engaged woohoo

3 more days until Tess and I go up to Oregon. We are spending christmas with her family and I cant hardly wait. We will be up there from the 22nd until the 28th. Her family has 30 acres on the coast so we will be staying in a trailer on her parents land. It will be great at night. We can sit around the outdoor fireplaces and enjoy the fresh cool oregon air. I love oregon and I look forward to our trips up there. It will be really good to get away from California. Too many people here and too many cars. I would love to move up to Oregon…but I am not quite ready. I have one more class until I finish my A.S in Fire Tech and then I will definitely be in a much better position to think about a transfer However, that decision is up to Tess too

I need to advertise my site more but I am just so darn lazy. I have tried becoming part of aweb directorybut that just takes so much time an effort. I never realized how much politicing is required to have a successful blog. Yeah need to be commenting on other sites constantly, you have to make ads for yourself and you need to kiss major butt. It is definitely and eye for an eye system. You scratch my back ill scratch yours. But you know what I think I am fine with this site how it is. I am not looking to have a hundred readers. I just want a place I can go to get my thoughts out. This site definitely fits the bill in that way. So cheers to those out there who are as lazy as I am.

Sometimes I think of how nice it would be to just get away from Sonoma County. To buy some property out in the middle of nowhere and build a house. Actually I think that would be my dream. If I were rich I would buy a couple hundred acres in the middle of nowhere and build a couple metal buildings. That way when I wanted to get away from it all I could go live rustically for a few days. I definitely wish I had one of those houses now. I am in need of a vacation. Hopefully my trip to oregon will suffice for now. I mean at least we will have 30 acres on coastal oregon to play with.

I have been feeling very anxious lately. It is almost like I have been having minor anxiety attacks. My heart starts racing and I can’t catch my breath. I have been trying to figure out why this might be and I have a couple of guesses. My first guess is that it is because I am stressed about not having a job or money. My second guess is that I am stressed because i have bee drinking more coffee lately. Tess and I recently got a jura coffee machine and we have been making tons of coffee. I think my body isn’t use to all the coffee so it is not functioning well. I just hate the feeling of being anxious. It is definitely one of the worst feelings I have ever experienced.

I haven’t been this broke since I was in college. The worst part is no one seems to be hiring and I have to enroll in classes soon. Luckily I only have one more class to take before I get my A.S in Fire Tech. I would like to be able to sell textbooks back to the JC but unfortunately because I am looking to get a career in the fire service it is important for me to keep studying all the time so that I don’t loose the information I have gained. Therefore I can’t really sell my books back. So I will have to figure out Some other way to make money…I would love ot just get a job.

I have been feeling very productive lately. No I haven’t had much work…:( but I have been able to do a lot of things around the house and get chores done which I never before would have been able to get done with the amount of stuff I had to do. I am definitely noticing an improvement in my psychological health as well a my physical health. I am leaning out and becoming more toned. Thank god I didn’t have to take the best colon cleanse to feel this way. I truly feel clean inside and out. This thanksgiving was great and this christmas should be even better. Tess and I are going to stay with her family for christmas. I Can’t Wait!